I have tomorrow off :) hopefully i can get some shit done.

So i was really grumpy than bobbi said i should go to dinner with here and not 2 seconds before i was about to leave i go to call MrNa and say that i was leaving. he says 'meet me at the corner i have a stray here... and hurry i'm blocking traffic.' This really upsets me even worse because he could've picked the dog up and threw him in his pick up, like what i did when i got there. anyway Mr NA takes a leash and starts walking around the neighbors house, all along just asking me question. now after a day like today i really didn't want to talk to, look at, or see anymore pets. i'm really angry that my job has become so boring and predictable (and so has the rest of my life, marriage, sex etc.).... ANYWAYS i get in the car and meet bobbi at the restraunt we sit and talk, and then get some icecream. it wa SOOO nice to do something out of the normal every day routine. Now if only the rest of the evening could go like that.
I have to work all day tomorrow and i'm sure by the time i get home i will either be craving attention, or not wanting any at all (hopefully for Mr NA it's the 2nd of the 2). I hate working all day. almost as much as i hate working a split shift.

I think i need to find something else to fill my time away from home. This idea of just sitting at home having the same day to day routine is driving me nuts.

For once i want the famous words from all the movies to apply.....
"You wanna get out of here?"
But no one really says these words now do they?

Generally pissed off.
I'm angry, upset and left work early because i just didn't want to do it anymore. I'm home now, i'm hungry and i'm just all and all upset.
rrrggggg

"Slow down, don't fuck with my high
I want to be left alone here with my monsters" - Mike Doughty

I don't quite know if this describes how my days is going... but i guess it's about right.

or maybe

"That I'm tired of castles in the air
i've got a dream i want the world to share
and castle walls just lead me to dispair" - Don McLean

If anyone knows what feeling this is please let me know. i've been confused all day.

A nice night at Area 51 not really talking to or PDAing with MR NA. now i'm sleep and kind of drunk.

Where is the line?
I wouldn't say that i'm not happy with my marriage... i'm just bored. I'm still in love and wish that i got more lovin' but i'm just discontent, if that makes any sense? I really did like the thrill of dating people. and will full admit that i dated people just for sex. hmmmm. i don't know what i think about that.

in other news: work was entertaining today, it always is on a dagny day :)
have have wished for quite some time that my name wasn't so common or maybe that i wasn't so common....
my thought keep going into something i don't really want to talk about.
the husband has a friend over and i'm kind of just staying out of the way because he seems like he needs his space. i kind of need my own space too.

extreme pain
i'm having surgery on my toe in the morning :( i'm really stressed. it hurts a lot right now so i guess it can't be any worse than what it is, but i'm still really worried about it. i'm also kind of depressed today... maybe it's just because todays not going to well. i had to go to the dentist and i only have one more visit before this stupid crown is in, this time it was really unpleasant. i'm really really sleepy and i don't really want to go anywhere or do anything.

so this past weekend my mom gave us all this furniture. one is a really nice china hutch that i have turned into a bar. another is a nice desk for ryan and myself, and the last is this quilting table that i can't really figure out. I know it should be easy but i just don't understand how this shit works.

A Wonderful dinner
yesterday was very nice. ryan and i are doing just fine lately which is really nice too.
today i worked, cleaned the house, cleaned up the pears in the yard, and finally sewed the couch back together. now i'm bored because i have nothing to do. ...

One MOre DVD -
HitchHikers Guide to the Galaxy :) I really do like this movie and well i'm very glad that i own it. In other news. i've gotten to bed really early this week and well i am now really tired and it only 9:15.

My Anniversary is tomorrow.
I don't know if i should be excited or just treat it like any other day. i like to have special days, but i'm afraid that Mr NA will not treat it that way so i don't want to get myself all excited for no reason. Does this make any sense?

Making Bread
today i have decided to find out my people think making bread is so hard. It has actually been pretty easy so far. but i'm only half way through. later i will make some easy Naan Bread (nummy) because i went to Curry in a Hurry yesterday and realized that i really just wanted Naan and not really Curry.
Today was the first time in 2 weeks that i bought gas. Last time only got $20 and this time i only got $15 :) i have been driving less and started to have ryan drive more.

I'm ready this book of short stories by Ray Bradbury called 'the cats pajamas' they are very short but very entertaining. i would give a review and some plot, but than it would be just like reading them yourself and just as fast. It's very mind thinking entertainment. and good toilet reading.

Yesterday i also picked up some new comic that i haven't heard of before it's called 'fabels' i haven't started reading it yet but i was thinking about sitting on the porch and doing some reading while the dough rises :)

grumpy/pissy/ and all around pissed off!
I'm not having a good day. The lawn mower got broken. the house wasn't clean. the ferrets never got a bath (i've been asking mr na to do this for a long time) and work was unproductive. When i started cleaning the house Mr Na didn't really care he just got mad at me for some reason. the truth of the matter is that people don't like to feel lazy when other people are actually working. I had nothing to look forward to today. all i really have right now is sleeping because MR NA has gone out with some friends. as far as the ferrets go i gave thema bath and asked ryan to get the dry when i called for him, than he put the headphones on and didn't hear me and i had to dry both of them. it's not that easy. Home life is okay i guess ryan hasn't really said more than 3 words to me today and it's just driving me insane. i just want company. Some one to care about me.
Anyways i'm going to drink and go to bed i think. maybe things will be better tomorrow.

Much To Much to Many New Dvd's
Here's the New List of Movie -
Red Dwarf Season 4 and 5
Almost Famous
Heist
Toy
Rainmaker
Empire Records
The Young Ones seasons
Mom and Dady Save the World
Earth Girls are Easy
The Muppet Show the complet First Season.
how can i watch all these news dvd's and still have to work... DAMN.

I get to work bobbi tomorrow and dagny on sat :) i'm happy about that. Hopefully when i get home ryan will atleast have made the bed. (i'm doubting it though)

bored and lets see ... bored
that about sums it up. sorry

i'm really grumpy
i've been like that all day. Mr Na got home and how things went with him out of town and his sleepyness it hasn't made any of today better.

Back to reality
Salt lake is bringing the Animals from LA, because of the situation, and this is such a BAD idea. Worm, heartworm, fleas and tick etc. really doesn't sound like a good idea. hopefully this doesn't servive in our envirnment, but i'm sure it will and in mass quantities until all the pets have it and you need to spend $90 per month to keep up with it. I really hope they do not bring these pets here. i would say out of the 200 pets coming here 20-30 dog/cats will have heartworm, 30-40 will have flease and ticks, and i'm sure a good chunk will have worms. and next year we will have to keep testing for heartworm. (which every summer costs about $25 at my work $100 at others) This sounds like such a bad idea.

Work is entertaining some days.
today was supposed to be my day off, but it really wasn't. There is a new, older, lady thats 'managing' the kennel in it's own right is entertaining. i only had to go into work for a few hours which is nice but now i'm worn out, and wish i didn't drink soo much coffee this morning :(
Now i'm home and Mr NA lite some really stinky incents and it's making my tummy go from upset to angry... grrr (it says)
In other news Nathan will be in town for a few weeks. :) he's one of ryan's friends which i really do like. (mildly creepy, but in a good way) I hope he and ryan get to spend a lot of time together.
Hopefully i can go back to sleep, but it's real late in the afternoon to try this bold stunt of getting my brain to quit working and get into sleeping mode!