ryan went to his new job orientation today. i found out that we have to oay $2000 for medical insurance for the next 4 months. i am soo scared that we wont have enough money, but i'm sure we will make due. i'm soo stressed at this moment. i have a huge headache from going to the dentist mixed with all of this anxiety. my work lately has not been good either. i feel as though i'm not needed. i'm an over qualified receptionist that pretty much makes me fell like my self worth is nothing......
so i sit and watch tv.

happy new year!!!
this year has started great!
I still feel like i'm a little bit drunk at work, but i have coffee and i'm trying to make sure i do everything right.
i hope this year will be a good one, and have a lot of fun things to remember