We had a stray cat named Marvin. Yesterday he had a blood test and he was FIV positive. Today he was put down.
I am sad.

I work only 30 hours a week so i clean the house and cook dinner and it hasn't really gotten me anywhere. It's kind of a bummer. Anyways i'm excited for my day off tomorrow i don't know what i'm going to do with it. Ryan has to work overtime so i really don't know what to do with the time. i have to tutor kalisha in the morning for her math class (i love math, it's so much fun) and then i'm free after that. I'm trying to think of something new that's good to eat for tomorrow... but i can't think of anything.

Is any life Normal?
ryan got all made at me for wanting to come back early from vegas... pretty much called me a self centered bitch... which makes sense actually. Iwill admit when things don't go my way i get upset, but still...sometimes i wish that i could change. I mean really change, make a desicion and do... but it never works that way. I always go back to the same old shit different fucking day. Really i just want to go home, and be with my family of pets :(

I was at the store... and there was liquor... a whole lane (#10) devoted to liquor. how i hate utah sometimes.

So folks.. in vegas and i might add that it is kind of fun just to get away from the city. It is not fun, however, that carrie is still stripping and we wont see her most of the time that we are here. I had a job interview on thursday i hope that went well but you never can tell. So yet again i'm looking for another job. I still have my part time job which is nice and it makes me happy to go to work, which i'm sure most any vet clinic that i go to will make me happy.
i don't remember if i had written this down yet, but it's something major. My mom when crazy on my... not her normal crazy... but crazy crazy. She kind of told me that if i talked to my dad i can't talk to her. I brought her back to reality several times (because she lives this alter exsistance)... there is no coming back for her in my life anytime soon.

next weekend i have 4 whole days off.. in a row. i'm so excited. But where to go? any suggestions?

Most of the time i wish i'd never gotten married... married means: no more sex, no more up late talks, no more "dating"... and i'm sure we all know what that consistes of. There is one person that i would like to just be dating though... i don't understand how that works. I really just need to stop being at our parties... it would make me forget. AHHHH i don't know why i think these things... but i'm sure most married people do.

Anyways i quit job #2... which is alright. I'll miss the monies but i wont miss the bullshit.
making garlic bread. will finish later