I’m scared to go on vacation. Have I said how much I don’t like to go out of town? I like to be at home, in my own bed, with my cats. I will miss my cats the most. I’m sad for them. They will be all alone, with only someone that will just stop by and feed them. No one to play with. It makes me sad.

Back to the wide world of blogging. You would think that I would have more to say but I never do. Work is alright, home is okay and play time is always fun.

This weekend was actually fun. I spent most of the time working on a dresser (and if I knew how to up load pictures I would). It turned out pretty nice I think. I¡¦m Extremely tired today because I was awake most of the night just sitting there. Ryan and I are watching a new HBO series which makes me stay up at night thinking about it. (it¡¦s call Carnivale¡K it¡¦s great ƒº) I think I tell more people about this show than I should, but it¡¦s wonderful.

In other news; I become reminiscent. It happens sometimes¡K. Where I was last year¡K the wedding¡K the year before still courting¡K and years before that¡K going to school, wishing I had boy friends, getting a few, and meeting some of the folks that I though were the one, but weren¡¦t. I am now with my one. A friend of mine tried to explain the answer to soul mates, what I got out of the conversation was that soul mates are like the other side of the coin. Some years you find that mate others you may not, but ones every couple of life times you find that one and¡K well it think you are two of the same person. One holds different traits, (which makes everyone different) but theses are traits that fit your other half. Does this make sense?

it's going to be hard to be friends with the folks at work... i don't really feel good about myself today. Ryan's being funny. it seems like he has nothing to talk about. He's just being grumpy and it seems to be taken out on me, which makes me feel like shit... (if i can say shit today) I can't wait for the last 30 minutes of work to pass. I'm overly board and would rather not work anymore. I think i want to try to find a new job, but what kind and do i really want to go through that shit again. I hate looking for a new job. it's nasty. I don't know... i think i'm going to go home and drink today.