it's going to be hard to be friends with the folks at work... i don't really feel good about myself today. Ryan's being funny. it seems like he has nothing to talk about. He's just being grumpy and it seems to be taken out on me, which makes me feel like shit... (if i can say shit today) I can't wait for the last 30 minutes of work to pass. I'm overly board and would rather not work anymore. I think i want to try to find a new job, but what kind and do i really want to go through that shit again. I hate looking for a new job. it's nasty. I don't know... i think i'm going to go home and drink today.