I have once again started and paid for pottery class. i enjoy my instructor (he show's me 1 new thing per class) my friends are all back in my class, and well it gets me away from home another night of the week :) i'm thinking i should start going to the bar that every one at beans goes to.
In other news i have a rather large crack in my foot that really hurts. i bought new shoes and the first day i wore them at FHPC i got pee and poop on them. oh how i love my job :)

Anyways, i think i will try and go to bed. i really don't think it will work. but hell what do you do.

a very strange evening
for some reason it seemed like a good idea to start drinking at work. it was a very entertaining evening at work. i got home late and drank some more... mind blowing sex.... stayed up untill the movie i was watching was over then tried to sleep. sleep came slowly but well worth it.
if this will be the outcome evertime i drink at work it will always be worth it. ;)

spouting gibberish.
a very hard couple of days. I need sleep. friday a 15 hour day working, sat 10 hours at FHPC then to dinner and a movie (which just made me realize how uninterested in my marriage i am right now) getting home around 10:45 and not really sleeping until 12am. waking up at 6:30 walking dogs for 3 hours then to beans now i'm back at FHPC. Monday and Tues are back to 15 hour days. and i do this all because i don't really want to be at home. i'm bored, it's dirty and really don't like being there. this coming from me who loves to sleep and chill out at home. i need a change in my routine at home. blah!

What am i thinking???
so i have a crush! it is nothing that i will act on, but i find myself thinking about him more often then a should. THEN i end up feeling bad for even thinking this way. What is wrong with me? i'm sure a good chunck of the problem is that i know my husband doesn't find me attractive and well it's just something i've been living with. but after seeing my crush i just want attention from my hubby and he just doesn't want to give it :( the sad thing is all i would have to do is ask from my crush and i would have what ever i want.
and this is all that has been filling my head for about a week now.
AHHHHH!