I have been in this funk lately.
i think a lot of it might have to do with the fact that i'm working so much. i'm tired most of the time. ryan seems really happy, but is distant. I think i'm just lonely. this is what my regular day is like. i go to forest hills from 7am - 1pm then go home for a couple of hours then to beans at 4 - 10:30pm by the time i get home ryan is usually up but i ready for bed right away. so i get in the shower then get ready for bed. it takes about an hour to get to sleep. then i wake up and do the same thing the next day. so i'm home enough to feel like i've been really home that day. but i haven't seen ryan enough to feel like i'm in a marriage. i'm just another roommate that just sleeps in the same room as ryan. The few days we are home together ryan usually gets dragged out with nate and carrie and i usually stay at home frustrated or annoyed. i'm trying to make time for me and ryan time it just seems to be hard.

in other news my good friend jenny and sean got a new dog yesterday. he is a super cute pug that is going to be really big and really rollie. they don't have a name picked out yet, but i'm sure they will have by the time i talk to her later today.

also i'm going to get a big reading chair and put it in the bedroom. i also want to get a new dining table and chairs.... but which to get first? i don't really think i have to money to get either right now, but maybe with some more time.

my car passed for another year on state i/m testing :) so maybe just 1 more year with my 17 year old subbie. it's just such a good car.