yesterday i hinted to ryan that i was disappointed in our marriage. i doubt that the point go across it was while i was bitching about have maggot flashbacks in my semi sleep. i slept like shit last night, i'm very very sleepy and i don't want to be here at work today. i think it would be different if i had something to do, but the boss is out of town and i have done so much cleaning i'm ready to just stop!