Ryan and i have been having physical problems lately. I kicked ryan out of bed. I'd like to say that i cried over the situation, well i have nights before from not being paid attention to (or begging for things),but last night i thought this is what i really want and to not cry for what i want. i'm sure ryan hasn't thought one thing about it, but he's a man. (a man that doesn't act like other men do more like a 85 year old man whose not interested in anything)
I doubt i will get i love you flowers, or any comment unless i bring it up.
I don't think i love him anymore, what's up with that?
i'll write more later.