i've been depressed all day today. usually i can get out of it when i go to work. i love to work. I really can't handle somethings on my own. so i'm seeing a therapist on Friday after work. i'm excited to tell someone else everything i feel. I have a hard time doing this to friends/or family because i feel stupid crying. and for some reason i think that a stranger i wont feel as dumb, well that is thier job. i just can't feel this way anymore and i just need to get it out. i just feel so alone.
i'm reminded of this "[real loss] only occures when you love something more than you love yourself. i doubt you've ever dared to love anyone that much."
i am lost and no one is there to find me.
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