I know all of you are saying give things time (this i'm saying because of the emails i've recieved recently) and like i've been explaining to people that once you find the right one, and only when you find the right one, will this happen to you too. There is a feeling that i can't just push away... i wish i could, but it doesn't work like that. People say not to rush into things but thats the reason why marriage rates are down and divorce rates are up. People are becoming to hesitent of the choices they are making, it's like no one can really decide what they want and i think once you know and understand what you want.... it's just a feeling in your heart that can't be described it, i wish i could explain it to people.

Anyways back to what this is supposed to be about, as if this has structure or anything....
So for the past week i have been doing nothing... nothing. How bad does this suck. it was Nick's birthday on the 14th good for him, happy big 20 man :) I've done some Christmas shopping, how i hate spending so much money for gifts. Did i tell you i'm making all the neices and nephew's scarfs for christmas. How cute is that. Last year i made them blankets and the year before i think i just bought gifts. It's more fun to make them i think.

I need to go to a concert soon or i might go insane. i crave the sound of live bands. The fact that after ward you can't really hear anything, and say anything for that matter.

I'm on campus right now and can i tell you that no one is here. It's a random person here and there but no real people, no real functions. Most people are moved out of the dorms and back to there homes. And well the rest of the people have no reason to be on campus. It's crazy!!!