Alright i bought a new cd today... BNL, Disk one, Greatest hits.. haven't listened to it... that's retarded. I think i will listen for a couple of days... that's just how i work

Some times Dereck can be so poetic... he's a good man this is for sure. i'm only sorry that we didn't fit. Look at his site... I wish i could explain myself as articulately as he does.

Anyways last night was spent trying to form words into sentences... i was writing a paper... UGH! When i turned it in this morning i don't think i did well on it. Oh well.

James and i are thinking that we are just friends (which no matter how i contest it's best this way) I need to tell Ryan that it's not going to work out. This is going to be tough.. he care's to much about me. When he heard i was sick yesterday he wanted to come over and make me feel better, when to others the thought hadn't even crossed their minds. I guess that's just how things work... The one you are in love with doesn't love you and the one that loves you... you don't love. Why is life tricky.