heartburn.... ugh!

I would not be happy if i were to die right now. Normally this wouldn't be the case, but my insides feel like they are going to explode. I haven't done something that i've wanted to do for about a month, and well i wouldn't like to end life in social term oil... arg!

Lately it's been really hard to focus. I think it's just that i'm thinking about something else and well it's not the best thing to be thinking about... but i'll deal i always do.

So what the hell if i'm 'dating' one person... and be 'infactuated' with another... might as well 'date' another person. Maybe that was a little too forward... but hell that's what i'm thinking about. The person that i want to be exclusive with doesn't want to be with me. The person that i should have nothing to do with wants all to do with me... and the other person... well he's a different story. The funny thing is.. is that they all now know... even though i was trying to keep it on the lay low. If any of these people come to this lovely site they could probably figure out which was which just by how i act around the them. So i guess it's half way in the open now. Let's just leave things how they are now and i'll figure things out in November. (taken from a conversation with the second well third depending on which thing i'm talking about... for November is when things will start picking up as far as one person is concerned) I'm i making sense? HELP ME!!! (smiliesteph@hotmail.com)

I've honestly never been more confused as far as men are concerned... is this what is supposed to happen?